I don't know what is wrong with me lately. States of near-euphoria clash with borderline depression. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore.

I think I'm way too bored for my own good.

Plus, I feel like a big loser with absolutely no life.

all killer no filler

I've not bought shoes for so long I have this insane urge to go buy like three pairs NOWWWWWW. Except, at more than 150$ per pair (let's not even mention the 1k shoes I would love to buy) I sadly cannot even afford one pair. Well, I can, but then I'll not be eating or going out for the next month or something.
My paycheck sucks now I guess I've only got myself to blame but somehow I can't find the motivation to work anymore. And to think when I first started work, my paychecks ranged from 350$ to 500$ easily!

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

3am disjointed.

I feel like crying now, and I don't know why.

I've felt like it since mid-afternoon.

I wish I could look at the big picture, but I'm selfish and stupid.

I think I went to school for absolutely nothing today.

I had a lot of things I wanted to say before I opened blogger and now nothing wants to come out.

Sometimes all I want to do is cry on someone's shoulder.

Too bad my dog doesn't have shoulders.

I think the only reason I come home sometimes is because of my dog.

There's work at 8:30am and I can't sleep.

It's a physically impossible feeling, but right now my heart is an aching, painful dead weight.

I don't know what to do with myself.

My life is a drag sometimes.

What life?

Sometimes I feel so blergh I could just kill myself.

3am.

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Sometimes I feel like there's an expiration date on everything in my life.

I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

(and if you're thinking I'm quoting that Simple Plan song think again, they stole it from me, the fuckers.)

Over the past few days I've encountered a few instances and situations in which my image has played to my detriment.
I could elaborate and explain myself here, but I'm pretty tired and my mind is otherwise occupied, and it really doesn't matter anyway.

I just wonder. Would people be different towards me if I looked different/ changed my image - just the way I look, and not anything else?
Would people like me more? The same? Less? Would I still be with the same people, same friends?

i hate my life. its insanely boring and i barely have any life anyway.

Thank you, Frankie Chee

Finally, someone has addressed the problem of Singaporeans' disgusting dress-sense publicly, in this case, with a two page article complete with pictures and sound bites.

Sadly, I completely agree with the author that while dressing sloppily is, well, horrendeous and disrespectful to certain places, and even though there were pictures and quotes showing how apathetic Singaporeans are about dressing up, enough to spark shame in me (though I am hardly a sloppy dresser - I think) I also agree when he says that this "trend" probably won't change for a long time, if at all.

I could go on and on about Singaporeans and how they dress, but why bother? I'll only get irked and it won't matter anyway.

when you're so bored and you start to get random

I've just noticed something while stoning on my bed looking at my Rubik's cube. Some of the little cubes that make up the Rubik's cube only have one coloured side, some have two coloured sides, whereas some have three.
And the ones that have three coloured sides are at the corners, and are always only at the corners, while the ones with the two colours are always in-between, and the ones with the one coloured side are always in the middle of one of the faces of the big cube.
And these one, two and three coloured little cubes will never change position. Location, yes, when you move them around the cube, but the one-coloured cubes will always be in the middle, the two-coloured, always in-between, and the three coloured always at the edges.

Does that make sense? Can you see it in your head now?


I don't know if what I've stumbled upon is part of the key to solving the Rubik's cube.
Part of me thinks it actually is, and another part of me thinks I should move off my bed and get a life.

Kyle Cook

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