Will you meet me in the middle?
Will you meet me in the air?
Will you love me just a little?
Just enough to show you care?

Ohh yeah and before I forget, a big FUCK YOUUUUU to you! I don't know whether to feel happy that I'm annoyed and I'm not sad and crying, or whether to be depressed and demoralised. Ok she may be prettier and whatever, but but but.. rawrrr I don't know what to say anymore. I don't know what to feel anymore! It's so ironic I just want to laugh bitterly.
You, my dear boy, are so full of bullshit.
Bullshit! Bullshit!

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blergh.

Well I tried to make it Sunday, but I got so damn depressed..

Sometimes I envy people with a faith. Imagine, whenever you have a problem just pray, or meditate or whatever, and give up that problem to a higher power. Whenever you need something, just ask for it and it may be granted to you. If you ever feel low there's someone up there to turn to. In short, turn whatever bothers you over to someone or something else, and you'll be saved. Maybe that's why a lot of deeply religious people are happy. Or happier, in any case.

I'm not saying I don't believe in God, I do, to a certain degree. I am still after all, a Christian, whether I attend church or not. However I haven't been the best of Christians cause well, I haven't felt touched by the religion at all. Maybe whatever faith I have lies in another religion? But I shan't be exploring that anytime soon.
Sometimes I feel like I just lack whatever drive that religious people have. They have a certain fervor, a different outlook on life, which I think I don't possess.

After reading this, don't look for me and invite me to your church. There are many reasons I would refuse, and a lack of faith is not forefront in this matter. If I were to go back to church anytime soon I'd go back to St. Andrews Cathedral, after all it is my church.
But don't look for me and preach, or condemn me for being unholy.
If it makes you feel better, pray for my lost soul.

I guess the basis of all religions is faith. This strong belief and drive that people possess deep inside that helps them make things happen.

Ok whatever. I think I think way too much.

I'm a bored child and I need something solid to hang on to.
I just need to find it.

All aboard the gay express!















"does this make me look pretty?"


I went out with Merv today to blow away money, and I did! ):
nooooooooooooooooooo.
I was going fine til Mervyn made me buy a bag ):
Ok I should stop bitching cause now I have a biiigass bag so ok ok ok Nic shut up.

OH OH I'M REAL GOOOOOD!! -smug look-
I passed my basic theory test in eight minutes!
ha! ha! ha!
Ok it really was quite easy and I guess every qualm I had about it last night was unwarranted.
Thank you for believing in me, Sprout Boy (:

I've realised that, as cliched as it is, life really does go on. Sometimes we fall into a rut, and think that life really isn't worth it anymore, then something comes along and makes us think that, hey, it really isn't so bad.
So well, moral of the story, keep living, cause things do get better.

I should take the time here to apologise to everyone who's had to bear with my bitching and crying and general overall depression and bad moods that I've plauged everyone with - not least myself - since the start of the year, and thank you, everyone, for being there for me and trying to cheer me up. I've realised I'm a very lucky person, there will always be a few people out there who really do care how I feel (:

I guess I'm tired of being sad and depressed and apathetic.
I'm going to take control of my life again. In a way I was motivated by Chen Yan, thanks friend.

On a lighter side, Mervyn and I have concocted a Great Plan: We'll form an acoustic band! Except we'll say it's "unplugged", which should excuse our crappy guitar playing.
Does anyone want to be our 'lead' guitarist so we don't sound so horrible? :D
I want to play Maggie May.

Does anyone watch American Idol? At the risk of sounding like a total fangirl, Sanjaya is so cuteeeeeee!! hahahhahahhahahahhahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahah

but not as cute as my 20th century boy (;

I was digging through my old photos and I found Hitler! All the way back from 2004! And I remembered the retarded excuse I gave my teacher for painting Hitler in blue.

"The blue portrays Hitler as a very sad, depressed man... uh yeah that's it."


seig heil, mein furher!!

Oh God oh God oh God

Basic theory test on Wednesday morning nine-fucking-am and and and I haven't gotten past 'the 12 steps for overtaking'!

Ok ok I will study it.
Tomorrow night.
Uh, Tuesday night, I swear!

Hello friends I'm so totally back.

I've decided to liberate myself from the slump I've been in and well, let's just say it's feeling pretty good, though sometimes memories creep up, I can push them away rather easily.

I'm going to start taking pictures again - I realised I haven't touched my camera since New Year's Eve - and I need somewhere to post pictures and other rubbish.

And videos! Don't forget the stupid videos, especially when school starts again, in uh, April.

I need a job.